will somebody punch me please?

I am a shitty friend. I don't even try. It's fucking bullshit. No wonder I'm always bored, and never have anything to say. I hate it. plus I think I have some weird fear of hanging out one on one with people. I guess I'm afraid they'll think I'm boring or weird or something. so I only hang out at parties and events. I guess I'm that guy. and I've made myself that guy. The guy who only hangs out when there's something going on and isn't really friends with anybody there. He's just there to have a good time. He doesn't just call you up to talk or play video games or whatever it is that people are supposed to do when they hang out. so here I am, sitting at home all alone, being sad because me and so and so aren't as good of friends as we used to be. and thinking that so and so seems kind of annoyed at me. I feel like I don't have any friends, at least no close friends and I'm feeling sad about it but it's my own damn fault.

we call it freedom.

I'm ready for people to realize that this election is not about democrats and republicans. I'm ready for people to wake up. change is such a huge topic this election. both sides are full of slogans about it. and let's face america needs change. but I don't really think that americans want it. because I think in order to really change anything we need a change on both the part of the government and the people. what we really need is a change of Lifestyle. face it the american people live like they own the world but don't even own their homes. we love our comfort and we say we want change because we want the government to change around us and enable us to live the way we want to live. We call it freedom. but it's not. the more government involvement we have in our lives, the more regulations we have, the less the living we work for will be worth, and the more our economy which is so important to our capitalistic society will suffer. lets face it america, if the people who print our money are trillions of dollars in debt our money in our bank accounts and wallets are worthless. and we are being held back by them.

let's stop being democrats or republicans and start being the american people. there's actually 17 candidates for president. vote for the one you believe in not the one the media tells you to.

I think 98% of people are full of shit

this is funny. it's from the akt enterprises website.

"As a young entrepreneur it is extremely important to remember that growing at a rapid pace can be the leading downfall to your business. Throughout the past few years I have gained the knowledge to accept the clients that will expand our company for years and years to come not for an easy dollar in my pocket that eventually leaves you out of business."  - "the man"

"alot of things have really changed around here."

"we can see everything that goes on."

"everything has been adjusted to your standard"

"we'll be in touch"

did I ever really have any faith in people?

things that I am

I am

 - pretty sure that we're all going to die fat and bald.

 - not interested in social status

 - tired of fighting

 - talented

 - hard working

 - ambitious

 - not very confident

 - looking for direction

 - looking for a job?

 - losing sight of alot of important things

 - not feeling free

 - concerned for the future of america

 - concerned for the future of the human race

 - book smart

 - not socially smart

 - not good at playing peoples games

 - not too worried about my appearance

 - not really upsidedown

 - amazed by how many stars I can see tonight

 - looking forward to monday

I killed Jesus today.

I killed Jesus today. and I didn't even do anything. I guess that's the problem. if to live is Christ, then to live as though he never existed is anti-Christ. but He did exist. He DOES exist. though His body no longer graces our world with its presence since His ascension , we the church are his incarnation. through our carrying out of his mission, and living for His kingdom we continue his ministry on earth every day. and by living for ourselves we oppose him. Christ lives on in our world daily through us. and I (as I so often do) denied Him that chance.

I killed Jesus today.

what did you do?